A Great Friend of Mine

I couldn't wait for next week because MeiWan and Cynthia are coming back and also Manda is coming down to KL! Even though Manda is on her work trip but at least I get to meet her and have gabfest with her, her roadshow is going to be at Pyramid 2, so near to my school and I can have lunch with her everyday.

By the way, today is Manda's birthday and she is turning 22! Happy Birthday, girl!

I haven't seen her for long, about 9 months. I miss those time when she was living just opposite my room and I can knock on her door whenever I wanted to talk to her or just MSN with her when I lazy to walk to her room, when we have our late night supper session, our gossiping session, and all the things we have done together.

Time when we cam-whoring with my webcam

First time clubbing together in Miri...

...until the countless time

Karaoke Session

Chilling at the beach with a monster

Dinner at Slippery Senorita

Manda indeed a great friend and companion. She is the one I can count on during my most depressed and lonely days in Miri, that is why I cherish our friendship so much and if there is an award ceremony for friend, she will be my friend of the year 2006!

To My Sincere Friend, MeiWan

Over the time, I am so self-centered that I didn't realise that things that I have done will affect people around me. Sometime my actions and decisions do hurt people who loved and cared about me and I break their hearts too.

Dearie MeiWan, this post is for you.

You are my most treasured friend, you are more than a friend, in fact you are more like a family member to me. Knowing you is one of the best gift that God ever given me. Remembering the time we first met, we became friend in a very contrary manner, you were hated me [cries] but look at us now, you have no idea how grateful I am to have you as my bestie.

I know that you love me, care about me. I really know and I wanted to tell you that I love you too!

Because of my stubbornness, I hurt myself in a lot of ways. I am so sorry to make you upset too when I am hurting myself. I didn't know that it will hurt you at the same time. Hurting you is the last thing I want to do.

I ever tried to hide all my problems from you, not telling anyone. I thought this is the best thing to do when I didn't want you to worry about me. But you never give up on me, you are like an Angel, standing there and showing me love no matter where I go or how far you are from me. Your constant love and care warmed me up during my cold days, lifted me up from darkness, you meant a lot to me and I can never imagine what will happen to me without you in my life.

It has been a long way and I am getting tired, tired of hoping something that will never happened. I guess it is time for me to let go of something that will only happen in my dreams. I promised you that I will be good, I will stop hurting myself, I will try to withdraw myself from him, stop crying for him, and open up myself for someone else who knows how to appreciate me and love me the same way.

You said that you have a lot of stuffs to tell me and so do I, I miss the time when we have our pillow talk. Gosh, I really miss you and I can't wait to see you again. Let's party hard and mahjong before my final when you are back on the 19th!

Love you always! *Big Fat Hugz + Caramel Kisses*

Friends In Life

As we grow elder, life changes in a way...

Friends that used to be so close to you may not be the same. I found that as I grow, some of my good friends are drifting away from me, friends from primary school, high school, college and other friends. We meet new people everyday in our life, I am no longer the first one who came to his or her mind when he or she needed someone to be there for him or her and it is even harder for us to meet each other and have a gabfest, either we don't have the time because we are busy or we just simply forgot about each other.

We are so busy until we couldn't find the time to meet, sit down and talk. And when we finally have the time, we don't have anything to say to each other, we are like, drifted apart. The way we talk changed, the topic we talk changed and everything else. It is very saddening, I feel very bad when I think of it.

Memories are what we left. Times when we giggled on every little things, we would talk about everything, non-stop until we fell asleep or batteries died, we cried together, we laughed together, we held each other hands when we walk, we hugged each other for comfort, and so many other things that might seem so small but it touched my heart, it will forever be remembered.

I am the type of person who really cherish every friendship I have. I believe that once we are friend, we will always be no matter what. Friends are even more important than my family, so I always hope that I can get the same thing from my friends but I always find myself ended up being disappointed. Thus, I started to lose my faith in "friendship", prove me wrong if you are my sincere friend!

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Naja is leaving and going back to Russia in a few hours, I called him to say goodbye and it was kinda waste that we didn't get to meet up before he left. I only saw him once since he has been to Russia, which was last month when MeiWan and Cynthia were back. It is hard to say goodbye to anyone, especially friends. Known Naja for couple of years and it was always fun around him, he is the all time joker and he loves to tease me and MeiWan, despite all the jokes and fun he made, he is still one of my favourite A Level friends. In fact, I love all my A Level classmates except, you-know-who if you were in the same class with me, everybody doesn't like him. Before he hung up, he asked me to take good care and find a good boyfriend, I don't know why he always say that to me, probably he wants me to be as happy as him. Take care Naja and we gonna be friends forever!